ditching cops & people passing

today a very nice man died. his name was steve. he had battled cancer for awhile now. i had seen him smile. i had seen him struggle. and most of all i had seen him stay sober. and he died sober. that is a-fucking-mazing.

last night i went to pick up a friend at the train station. i was going kinda fast over the bridge that leads to my house from downtown. i saw the cop outside of his car, clocking people. i knew i was screwed being the only other person on the bridge. and i pulled a fast one and got off at the next exit. right in front of the cop. i thought i may as well get a ticket off the freeway (nothing like people slowing down to watch you get a ticket...only in wisconsin) and he backed up and i thought for sure he was coming after me. but he just stayed where he was. i was lucky. and being the asshole that i am....i was worried about my car insurance going up. and that is about it.

side notes: my mom sent me this photo from 2002. when we would go to the coast and sit and stare out at the ocean for hours. it was a nice peaceful time together. lots of skip-bo and picking up shells from the beach. i miss oregon. a lot. and the people in it.

work is nuts. and it fills my days. i feel like i am in a slump. my days tend to run together and i feel like i am always looking for 'something fun' and its been hard to find. especially because i am looking for it. not just letting it happen.

thanks steve for all the smiles. you will be missed.

ooo,
k