third time?

So i was really hoping to get this job in Portland and i did not get it because i did not live there. This is the third job that i had a second interview, and got told i would have got the job had i lived in Portland. Its getting old.

So what the fuck do i do? Do i sell everything i have and make the move? Or do it wait it out at my perfectly good job here and see if i can make it a little bit longer without seeing my mom and friends? And living somewhere people don't stare when you walk down the street? And kids don't point. And you don't feel like you are living in the south with all the segregation. Its horrible and maybe living here has made me realize that people are like this...and i should not be ignorant to it. Where i have chose to live in the past has always been comfortable and excepting. And this has been a big change for me. And a good learning experience if nothing else. I think i am going to start staring at fat people. They could do something about it...stop eating. And the people that stare at my tattoos or me are always the fat white trash people. Why is that. Black people are always like, "right on!" and the Hispanics are always hitting on me :) but the white people are scared and take their kids to the other side of the street. Its horrible.

Anyways, i am so not sure what to do? Part of me thinks i should just make the move and hope for the best. And the rational part says don't do it. Stay here till you get a job. But that could be awhile?

help me!

k