Well here we go again...everything is changing.
I gotta talk about this friend of mine. We were close. He and I did a ton of fun stuff together. But, all my friends said that he did not treat me very well. And that maybe it would be better if i was not friends with him. He is kinda like the male version of me. I wanted so bad to see the good side. Its not so much that i wanted him to change, but he was changing. And i saw it. And sometimes he was so nice and other times he was mean and angry. You never knew what you were going to get. And it made it very hard to be close with him. Plus he had a bad taste in his mouth for women. And he did not treat them very well. If you were a guy you got respect, if you were a girl...you got the short end of the stick.I took him to meet my family. My friends. I took him to my home state. I introduced him to my world. He still treated me like shit.
Well now he has a new gf and doesn't want to be my friend anymore. All the shit i put up with and he has decided that it is not ok to be friends. Its pretty sad. It hurts me. Everyone i have talked to has been like....move the fuck on. And i am thinking this is a good idea. I really really wish he had not moved to portland...but what can i do. He lives there and i will be living there soon. And its a big enough city for us both.
So goodbye my asshole friend. Time to make new and better friends that can show me once again what its like to have people in your life that matter.
Thank you to all the people who have listened to me bitch about this for the last 3 years. I love you all. Its over now. :)
kai
5.12.2008
5.08.2008
americano's and messed up song's
hey.
So maybe i am not as good as i thought with this blog thing. I want to write and then I get side-tracked. And it never happens.
Lets see whats going on?
•I saw Tegan and Sara last night...so fun. we had great seats and they played all the songs I love. And they even screwed up a song and it was cute. I have a feeling fame will never mess with them. They are real people getting paid to do what they love and OMG! do the lesbians love them. I swear none of those girls live here. :)
•a couple of weeks ago I saw a band that I had been wanting to see for awhile...357 string band. They were amazing. It was so so so much fun. Great crowd of ALL kinds of people. Guys with brewers hats and people with mohawks.
•Last Friday I went to Chicago and saw Kate Nash...who btw is so cute. And has a huge ass. (which i enjoyed) and we stayed at this super posh hotel in downtown. It was funny the looks we got showing up there in wifebeaters with tattoos all showing. The room was nice and the shower was amazing. It was a fun night, we walked many miles and i got blisters. Totally worth it. Fun, fun, fun.
•Work has been nuts. I am learning so much new stuff all the time. Its good and good.
•I am back in the gym. It feels good. I am happy when it hurts like that. It makes me feel more alive, and the sunshine outside helps too. I love to ride my bike there and feel the cool air on my hot skin as I ride the couple of blocks home.
•Summertime in milwaukee is fun. I have already been bbq'ing and the yard needs to get mowed today after the gym. I keep telling myself this. I WILL do it today :)
•I have some frustration with the moving/ work situation. The person I thought I may stay with until i find a place, is no longer in my life. And as much as it makes me sad, its most likely for the best. It was a toxic relationship and I feel better. It is scary to not know where you are going to stay and where you are going to work and all the what if's that happen. But I know I will be ok, I always am. And I know that I have people who love and support me. And that is a nice feeling. Plus, it's really hard to find a job from this far away. It's been frustrating to see jobs I am totally qualified for and not hear anything because I don't have live there. But i will keep trying. And until then i will not be quitting my current job. :)
•I just got off the phone with my bff claire, she makes me feel at ease. She and I have known each other going on 19 years this year. weird. And she has seen all of me. And its nice to have someone like that. We are so much more adult now than we were (that makes me giggle) and we are talking about adult things...seems weird. When we met I was 14 and she was 15. A strange time in both of our lives. Now her kid is 14 and that is even weirder. I talked to him on the phone the other night...it made me feel old. He is a good kid and hopefully he will not make some of the same decisions that b and i did at his age? But, who knows. He wants to go to Georgia Tech. And he knows he may not get in yet he has his heart set on it. And it's nice to see.
I love my family.
And i think i am done. I have a friend that is way into coffee and he has been teaching me things about coffee that i never knew. Maybe someday i will let go of the cream and sweetness? But until then, i will have a XL quad americano with room.
kisses,
k
So maybe i am not as good as i thought with this blog thing. I want to write and then I get side-tracked. And it never happens.
Lets see whats going on?
•I saw Tegan and Sara last night...so fun. we had great seats and they played all the songs I love. And they even screwed up a song and it was cute. I have a feeling fame will never mess with them. They are real people getting paid to do what they love and OMG! do the lesbians love them. I swear none of those girls live here. :)
•a couple of weeks ago I saw a band that I had been wanting to see for awhile...357 string band. They were amazing. It was so so so much fun. Great crowd of ALL kinds of people. Guys with brewers hats and people with mohawks.
•Last Friday I went to Chicago and saw Kate Nash...who btw is so cute. And has a huge ass. (which i enjoyed) and we stayed at this super posh hotel in downtown. It was funny the looks we got showing up there in wifebeaters with tattoos all showing. The room was nice and the shower was amazing. It was a fun night, we walked many miles and i got blisters. Totally worth it. Fun, fun, fun.
•Work has been nuts. I am learning so much new stuff all the time. Its good and good.
•I am back in the gym. It feels good. I am happy when it hurts like that. It makes me feel more alive, and the sunshine outside helps too. I love to ride my bike there and feel the cool air on my hot skin as I ride the couple of blocks home.
•Summertime in milwaukee is fun. I have already been bbq'ing and the yard needs to get mowed today after the gym. I keep telling myself this. I WILL do it today :)
•I have some frustration with the moving/ work situation. The person I thought I may stay with until i find a place, is no longer in my life. And as much as it makes me sad, its most likely for the best. It was a toxic relationship and I feel better. It is scary to not know where you are going to stay and where you are going to work and all the what if's that happen. But I know I will be ok, I always am. And I know that I have people who love and support me. And that is a nice feeling. Plus, it's really hard to find a job from this far away. It's been frustrating to see jobs I am totally qualified for and not hear anything because I don't have live there. But i will keep trying. And until then i will not be quitting my current job. :)
•I just got off the phone with my bff claire, she makes me feel at ease. She and I have known each other going on 19 years this year. weird. And she has seen all of me. And its nice to have someone like that. We are so much more adult now than we were (that makes me giggle) and we are talking about adult things...seems weird. When we met I was 14 and she was 15. A strange time in both of our lives. Now her kid is 14 and that is even weirder. I talked to him on the phone the other night...it made me feel old. He is a good kid and hopefully he will not make some of the same decisions that b and i did at his age? But, who knows. He wants to go to Georgia Tech. And he knows he may not get in yet he has his heart set on it. And it's nice to see.
I love my family.
And i think i am done. I have a friend that is way into coffee and he has been teaching me things about coffee that i never knew. Maybe someday i will let go of the cream and sweetness? But until then, i will have a XL quad americano with room.
kisses,
k
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