Supa fun!

So, I just figured out how to send blogs from my phone. And it makes me pretty giddy. Its even better b/c nobody is reading this!

So I went to see the police and elvis costello last weekend. We had pretty great seats. Here is a photo that kinda sucks, but sting came out on stage when elvis was doing allison. It gave me goosebumps.

Tonight is CSS & Go Team @ Turner hall. I want to go but I don't want to buy a ticket :)

Oh well. I am feeling better. Thanks to everyone for being so rad.

xxx,
Kai

turn it around.

So i know my posts have been kinda on the downer side as of recent. But things may be on the upswing for this girl. I am in a spot now that with the economy the way it is...it may be better to keep my ass in Wisconsin until I find a job in Portland. I have applied to so many i cant keep track of them all anymore. But, i am still hopefull.

I am excited about going to see the Police and Elvis Costello tonight. I have seen Elvis before and it was super fun and the police...who knows. Thank god for craigslist. I got them at a pretty good price and it will be fun. It may rain, but i don't really care.

I feel pretty optimistic today. I have been doing what i need to stay sane. Its been really hard to do anything fun. But at least i feel more settled here now. I am going to keep looking for work in pdx and hopefully someday it will come together. But in the mean time...i am good here. I have been looking for a smaller place with heat included, so we will see. I may end up at the Shore crest. :) which is funny b/c everyone has lived there at some point.

7.28.08

So i had to leave this and start it again this Monday. So busy at work, i cant seem to get it all done. It may take me all day to write this.

I am going to tell a little story. So i had this friend i trusted. I told them things and they told me things, important things, we shared. And I saw this person had so much life in them. We like to do fun stuff and were always laughing. They made me feel at ease. And then today I come to find out that they were lying about something important. They looked me in the eyes, directly in the eyes and told me a lie. I wonder how people can do that. It makes me have little hope in people. Today I feel like only animals can be trusted and even then they may turn on you. But, people are fucked up and my alcoholic friends are even more fucked up. And just when you think you can trust again, someone fucks you over. And i have a feeling this person had been lying to me for awhile. My gut was telling me something was not right, and i pushed it away. I wanted to talk to them about it and they kept telling me bullshit.

So moral of the story? I want to be able to continue to trust people, but today I am leery.

k

33 & deductions

Oh i forgot. i had a birthday last week. it was a super good time. Lots of good food and friends. I may think mke blows, but there are some amazing people here. I sometimes forget that when i am all wrapped up in my own blanket of self shit.

I got a huge speeding ticket and my car got hit by a city bus when i was not in it last weekend. I keep thinking i should sell it. And move to pdx and get a bike and ride the bus. luxuries i have been accustom to. And don't want to give up, even if it keeps costing me money. I just paid the fucking car off and this has to happen. Also if you have progressive...they kinda rock. They came to my work, did an estimate and wrote me a check...right in the parking lot. I was a little afraid to take the check but oh well. that is what i pay for insurance right? whatever. and the damages are $1200. And i had a $1000 deductable. I am so fucking over deductions. Why do we pay insurance health or car and still have to pay after we already paid? I also have co-pays. It makes me feel like i am getting bent over and fucked with something huge. And i still pay b/c that is what we are supposed to do as Americans. its all bullshit. What about some socialized medicine people????

enough of this.

k

just a little stuff i like...

Here are a couple of things i have designed, that i enjoy. I have really liked working with Jake at Quantum Auto. He is a easy and simple guy. He had a concept and ideas, but no ability to put the two together so i did it for him. And he likes it. And i like it. He may build a wind powered car?

This takes me to the next thing I am enjoying. Being around people who are passionate about what they do. Even if its not what they do for $. It makes me so
happy to see people's faces light up when they talk about
things that make feel all stupid inside.
Even if they are talking about their dog.

Another logo i did awhile back that i enjoy, is this one for the green team. Bradley was also really easy to work with, and we created what he wanted. And now it is huge on his truck and trailer. Kinda weird to see something i did that big. But i have gotten more work from it, so that is a plus. And the work slowly comes in. And i am wishing sometimes there was more of it. But, i am patient.

I still love my job a ton and should get back to it. After all they are not paying me to sit here and talk about other work i have done :)

kisses
k